In the days after George Floyd’s killing, I thought much about racism, my white privilege, and just about everything else.I woke up each morning feeling as though I should write, or say, angry words.
And I did.
I found that many of those words were directed at Sanford, my Central Florida hometown, where I’d observed egregious acts of racism.
Though as my thoughts drifted to other thoughts, I was surprised by my recall of some positive experiences coming out of Celery City (Sanford’s nickname).
After a cooling off period I decided to pursuea few of those stories. I will likely publish some of the negative stories, too; though will try to no let those consume me.
A couple of the positive stories (still in development ) , “Woke Barber” and “A Stain on our Soul” are related to the City of Sanford’s reprehensible treatment of Jackie Robinson. Thus, I’ve provided the background post, “Royal” on that topic.
The series begins with a brief description of my transition from New Englander to Southern Boy: “How Did I Get Here?”
I have several story pursuits in my head, and have no idea ofhow many I’ll actually write, or publish.Though only one way to know how this ends it to begin.
I felt as though I needed to see more live baseball. Hell, I deserved it. And a city with two teams was a great place to do it.
Thus, I decided to prolong my stay and I began to seek freelance projects. And go to baseball games on weekends. I was particularly interested in going to a Cubs game on a weekday afternoon. That seemed like a totally-Chicago thing to do.
Soon, I received a call from an educational publisher in the suburbs. The caller, George, informed me they were in Glenview, Illinois, I didn’t know exactly where Glenview was, but I was fairly confident that the CTA trains didn’t go there. Which meant driving, and being stuck in traffic. I was slightly less interested in the job.
He described their location and it didn’t sound far away–not that much car time. Still, I was momentarily disappointed. Since I was in elementary school, I’d envisioned myself working in downtown Chicago, largely because of this TV intro:
However, the project was with a company I was interested in. I was pretty excited about a chance to work with an academic publisher, on an elementary and middle school math textbook revision.
I thought ahead: if I were to be offered to this position, I could get to an afternoon Cubs game that week, and start the position the week after. Therefore, I agreed to come out for an interview.
The next day, a Tuesday, I met with three different design managers. It went well. The interview ended with George who was leading the math textbook project asking,“Can you start tomorrow?”
This was good news! Or was it? Starting the next day would disrupt my game plan (literally because I planned to go to a game.)
I thought for a few moments. The project was due to end in November. Well past baseball season. The project was rather behind schedule, so I thought it might be hard to get a day off.
I paused, then thanked them for the offer and said, “I really need to do some work on my car, can I start Thursday?”
They agreed. I felt like I’d hit a home run.
The next day, I hopped on the Brown Line for a short ride, then walked a mile, east on Addison Street and held up one finger outside of Wrigley Field, where the Cubs would be playing the Dodgers.
I hadn’t expected that they would be sold out. I talked to a few scalpers and settled for a standing room only ticket.
After a few innings, the crowd thinned out, and I took a seat in the left field bleachers, and had my first taste of Old Style.
When I got home, I went to my car, that was parked a few blocks from my apartment, and checked the oil. I could honestly say I worked on my car.
What the Hell is a Blueline?
I started the freelance job, the next day. The project was hectic from the get-go. The pace was quick and I was a bit out of my element. Though I had deep experience with desktop publishing, this was my first exposure to ‘traditional’ publishing. Production managers kept asking me about status of “blue lines” and I thought they were referring to the train that went to O’hare, for crying out loud.
It seemed borderline barbaric, a waste of time that revisions to a textbook would still be done with pencils and ink. The horror.
All of this would have been manageable except for the fact that I was pushed out the door at 4:30 every day. My undone work deficit grew larger every day. Stress invaded my sleep.
One thing was clear, I would absolutely not have time to get to another Cubs game on a weekday. Delaying my first day for this project now seemed like a genius move.
We wrapped up the textbook revisions just before Christmas. I received several contract extensions for post-project cleanup, and some additional work that had been on the department’s to-do list.
On my last day, nearing February, I went to say goodbye to George and he invited me into his office. We talked about the project, their coming move to digital publishing, my future plans, and of course, comic books and baseball.
About 20 minutes in, I said that I didn’t want to keep George from his family, but I had a quick confession.
His eyes widened a bit, and his head tipped back. He looked like a smaller, a non-intimidating edition of Ernest Hemingway, with a voice that resembled comedian, Jackie Vernon’s . I revealed that I had kicked off my tenure with the company by playing hooky.
“….and since I didn’t know I was going to stay in Chicago, I thought that might be my only chance….”
He put up his hand to stop me.
He sat back in his chair, with his hands on his belly, chuckled a bit and said, “I don’t blame you. In September, it’s too nice to work. Though I wish you had told me your plans, I’d have met you there.”
A Drexel University student (a zealous baseball fan) once did a 6-month ad agency internship for me in Chicago. After he went back to school, I received some paperwork from his internship program.
I called a friend, then teaching at Penn, who said I could stay with him. I booked a cheap direct flight to Philadelphia and completed paperwork at my friend’s house.
I contacted the former intern and arranged a meeting place, “Gate 1 of Veteran’s Stadium…”
I arrived in at the Philly airport a few weeks later.
Two days later, I was here:
Veterans Stadium (Paul Altobelli / CC BY (https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/2.0)
That stadium was ugly, the Phillies were bad, and it was a hellishly hot day. It wasn’t hard to find privacy. My former intern and I just walked up four rows from where my friend and his kids sat. We went over the review form and returned a few minutes later.
Certainly employee-performance reviews during the 3rd inning of a Phillies game is one those things that is no longer a thing.
This is likely quite rare, among fans, and even non-fans. I may be even be alone in this.
I haven’t watched football for many years, my reasons for shunning it are too many to list here ( short story: nothing to do with kneeling vs standing). Though, the last team that I had any interest in (decades ago) was the Washington Redskins; which as of yesterday are no longer the Redskins.
I didn’t have any prior connection to the team, but when we were young men, one of my high school teammates became their special teams captain for a few years. My loyalty to Washington’s team came on rather suddenly.
Seeing Reggie on the field, across from John Elway and other Denver Broncos’ captains, for the Super Bowl coin toss stands alone as my all-time favorite sports moment.
Reggie Branch, Super Bowl XXII
No other sporting event has ever reduced me to tears. But there I was, furiously wiping my eyes and cheeks, with fingers that had just handled some hot peppers, so I cried some more. At least I could legitimately use the “I got something in my eye,” excuse when my friends made fun of me.
That Name, Though
I didn’t think that much about the name “Redskins” in the beginning. As a whiter-than-white kid, growing up in the era I did, I was exposed to manyentertainment options containingracist elements. You probably were, too (if you don’t believe me, youcan pop some search terms into YouTube–perhaps ‘racist cartoons’– then you can get back to me). As a child, when I first heard the name Redskins, I never even gave a thought as to whether it was offensive.
Though, as I pondered the name and listened to people, it was clear how problematic the name Redskins was.I briefly lived in the DC area in the early 1990s, and there was what seemed like an especially large amount of uproar about the name. Yes, it was a pretty messed-up name.
I was glad to read today that the owner of the team announced that the Redskins name was being dropped. This followed comments by the teams owner that he would “never” change the name. This threat, by FedEx–which had naming right the team’s stadium– to revoke a sponsorship deal seems to have been the reason for the reversal.
From what I’ve seen on social media, many middle-aged white men are offended by the decision. This seems rather comical, in the same way when dudes claimed that their childhoods were ruined when a remake of Ghostbusters featured women in the lead roles.
Let them be offended. They’ll get over it, or become outraged about something else, soon enough. It was well past time for that team’s name to be changed.
Credit Where Credit Is Due
I don’t think I’d talked to Reggie Branch sincewe were about 20, when during a college break we both showed up at our high school’s weight room to for a workout.
Though a few years ago, I was able to get his contact info. In the subsequenttext message conversation, I made it abundantly clear that I alone was responsible for his success.
“I missed so many blocks in high school, that you had no choice but to become a tough runner. You owe me everything! EVERYTHING!”
Scott Smith (72) Preparing to Miss a Block
He laughed, or at least his emojis laughed for him, and he agreed.
I feel as though he should give me his Super Bowl ring.
Much of the world is in a sports-starved state, so I’ve included this post, National Signing Day about my storied career, and my scouting report.
I haven’t lived there in decades, and after I lost my parents I haven’t had much motivation to go back there, even for brief vacations, during Michigan’s face-cutting cold.
I do know a lot of people in Florida and I’m related to some them, so I do keep up on things going on in that area, particularly with the surge of C0vid-19 cases.
Reading news last week, I was stunned into silence when I read some articles, within a few minutes of each other, where I learned that:
The state was approaching 15,000 new daily cases (they exceeded the threshold days later) and
Dozens of hospitals, in the state, including several near Orlando, were beyond their ICU capacity and
The Disney theme parks in Central Florida were opening that weekend.
The parks were also opening in the hottest part of the year and during hurricane season. I don’t even want to think about where people with heat-related, or storm-related injuries, would seek care.
This a hot mess that is inevitably going to become hotter and messier.
Saturday morning, (July 10) I saw several tweets that made mention of the opening of the Disney Parks, and included Disney’s “Welcome Home” reopening video:
One tweet in particular captured my sentiments, Yashar Ali ( @yashar) simply stated: “No, Thanks.”
Moments later, my current thoughts drifted to some rather old thoughts, and I had a rather vivid recollection of dream I’d had years, and years ago, and hadn’t thought about much since.
Here, we queue up the flashback sound effect from old sitcoms:
As a teen recovering in an Orlando hospital after surgery, for several weeks, I had wacky-ass dreams/hallucinations because my sleep was disrupted by the pain, steroid treatment, etc.
I once had a vision that my hospital bed was in a huge room with hundreds of others, and Mickey, Pluto, Donald, etc….were tending to patients.
I realized I was at Disney World, in a hospital!
An alarm went off and I saw that there was coin slot on my bed and I had to put more money in. I had no coins, I was in a hospital gown….and I was sporting a Foley catheter ffs….
I was told by a (human) nurse that if I didn’t have any money, I had to leave the bed; she grabbed my arm to yank me out of it. I resisted. Then,
Right about then I awoke, stressed, with quickened breaths.
I saw cleaning staff in my room. My semi-private room. So, it just my bed and the one where the fireman with kidney stones slept.
The steroid-fever dream now seems like it could become Disney’s new business model: The Happiest Emergency Field Hospital on Earth.
What do you think? It could help offset some revenue holes for Disney.
Seriously, I understand, that like many other organizations that Disney has been been bleeding cash. Their theme parks rely on revenue from admissions, meals, souvenirs and that had been closed off for months.
Furthermore, one of their other key holdings, ESPN is likely suffering from the lack of sports; thus the viewership and ad revenues are down.
I understand that the reopen target date for the theme parks was set months ago, when Florida had few cases compared to some of hotspot states.
Still, reopening the parks, even with a reduced cap on guests, is an act of negligence. Doing so puts park employees, its guests, and the community at large at risk
If Disney being pressured by government, they are complicit in a crime.
I don’t have faith that Disney, or the government will make a good decision anytime soon.